AND! tmr I’m meeting her DD hahaha i cant wait!

I know I did alot of funny, stupid, cool things with her.

We learnt how to skate tgt, at void decks, and at the pool place the toilet!

She witnessed my relationship with marcusmark. LOL. that one drama shiol~

We played pool like stupid noobs! : p

We talked on the phone for hours hours hours. From midnight to morning?

Then I rmb theres one night when we were at the pool place. and it’s was late alr, and my mummy was calling me home. And then sylvia took over the phone and asked my mummy if I could stay longer cos school is reopening and we wont have time to meet. hahahahaha. But true, we didnt meet much. Then slowly drifted, BUT! we caught up again. ^^ heh heh heh.

Yay, well I hope merv, marc and ham will join us for pool. I havent met them for ages. Haha. Ham and Merv were the ones who taught us how to skate. think I’d probably just fall off the skateboard if you ask me to skate now~ Lol.

Irwin’s coming back soon! I very long never see xmarc le. Sigh.. MY TRUE FRIEND AHHHHHH, WHERE ARE YOU!!!

I think I’m falling in love with swimming all over again. *giggles*

Oh mummy bought me a white half jacket. It’s shinnnnyyy, I like!

Going to Genting on 22nd Dec I guess. Mummy said it’s gonna be freezing. Yay! I cant wait for NewYork : p

Watching American’s Got Talent now. Is stripping a talent? Hmmmmmmmmm.

 yeyeah. weilien sent me this song, this it’s damn nice. He always can find such nice songs, im jealous. There you go, HEAR IT! nice luh ~

Shy That Way - Tristan Prettyman, Jason Mraz :]
You know you’re stunning
You’re absolutely stunning
And I’m running always running
And now I’m crying
It’s only cause I’m caring
And if you were more daring
Maybe you’d stop staring
And come over and talk to me
Tell me bout how you’ve been waiting so patiently
And how you tried but I just turned away
And I’ll say yeah well you know,
I’m shy that way

I like it
I like it shy
You know it’s alright, it’s ok
Cause we’re
Shy that way…

Dont know whether I’m thinking right

Dont know whether I’m on the right track

Dont know if I’m regretting

Dont know,

I dont know.

But I know today’s openhouse performance for Zilch was cool. ^^ haha.

Amkss is rather sad leh, like nobody come see our school shiol.

Oh one last -dontknow-,

I dont know but,

I think I’m getting inferior. LOL

Im a selfish asshole, really. So please stay away from me. Go and solve your own problems and stop coming to me. I cant even save myself. Cant y’all think for me instead?

All you lousy boys.

Open house tomorrow. Im getting scared. I only played most of the pieces once. Is it suppose to be a performance? Oh yes, oh yes.

Even my good friends dont get it. I need help here, not you.

Carin, Clinton, MarcusLeo and I went for the S-POP thing right after band camp yesterday.

Mediacorp is Mediacorp. Alright, I think I shouldnt elaborate on that. That night, Kelly was the special guest. She’s soooo skinny! Hahaha.

Okay no opinions on that. Band Camp time.

Trumpet!

Lol, Brandon and xmarc. ^^

Me, Clara and YanLing.

This time, it was pressurizing.

The section’s standard is falling drastically. And of course, Im partly responsible for this. Juniors arent doing well at all, and I dont know what else to do. I kept trying when everyone else seemed to have given up. But still failed.

Sigh, Im really pissed with Brandon. I know all these while I did not contribute ANYTHING at all. He said the rest of us should help him by trying to take the first trumpet. I know we’re at fault, for depending, pushing things to you. So I took almost all the first trumpet parts that band practice and I nearly died. I know how you feel, finally. And I know it’s demoralizing to not be able to play on the trumpet because your lips is spoilt. I KNOW, WE ALL KNOW. We feel guilty, we feel so damn bad. THE WHOLE DAMN SECTION IS TRYING TO HELP YOU, TRYING TO SAVE THE SITUATION. But apparently you did not appreciate the change, and gave us a cold shoulder. You know Germaine got so stressed up? She cried so badly before the ensemble, NOT because she was nervous, but because of you. Because the juniors couldnt play the ensemble still, she was requested to play along with the juniors. Given her character last time, she wouldnt even dare to try. But this time, she did. She just agreed, and she said, ” I try my best. ” Pleaseeeee. Arent you GLAD that she’s like saying that? Come on, I know you’ve been sacrificing your lips and taking up all responsibilities of the trumpet section. But, thats what a section leader is right?! I mean, be practical about it man. Section Leader. You take up all the scoldings and all, it is a -suppose to be-, not a BURDEN. Self-pitying isnt required. Right now, instead of giving the section a cold shoulder and give attitude to your juniors, you should be helping us train the juniors and motivate the section to get back on our feet. I totally respected you and admire you for your trumpet playing. And I think I really suck compared to you, because I dont have determination and patience for trumpet. But you know what? After this band camp, you made me realise that you have lousy leadership. Getting emo and demoralized because of your drop in standard is fine, but dont take too long. It gets irritating. That day when you talked to us, together with Yu Qing, Liang Yun and Glenn, we were damn guilty. But hello, things have already changed. So get out of your demoralized state and start helping out. You know I was so pissed that day before the ensemble. I was chionging with the juniors, keep trying to help them, but you were there, slacking, playing with your phone. Then Clara told you, ” RuiShan is trying to fix things up for you. ” and what was your reply? ” Let her do it lo. ” And you even made the juniors sound like their damn lousy. Juniors are trying, we are trying. Why did you stop?

When everyone starts to treat you better, try to understand you better, you take it for granted.

I’ve fallen before. I know how it feels. If I could stand up again, I dont think you’d take long.

Brandon, Clara and I are trying to help. You’re the person we appreciate most in the section. But the person we appreciate most doesnt appreciate us. Thats disheartening, really.

Hopefully I can learn the ensemble piece fast, then wont ruin the performance tmr night.

Sigh, pressureeeeeeee. :/

I’m just hoping I dont get sick after the camp, like always. Gahhhh.

Heard from YanLing that our section is doing fine. heh heh heh. AND AND, brandon has been with the section the whole time! Hurray!

Hopefully after this camp, my section will be more bonded. :]

Band is only fun when my section bonds, really. When every single one of them is cold and like a stranger, i dont really find a meaning going for band.

BUT SOOOOOO… Band, Im coming Im coming tmr!

Off to sleep. Goodnight!

Will be back on thursday ^^ I cant wait to go on a bikini date with my Devol/Zilch Girls!

I LONG FOR BAND BREAK FOR PLAY TIME!

Sore eyes, sore throat. Ugh.

Tmr i must go camp le. Or not I no need to perform in ensemble alr. zzz..

Belle’s damn cute.

Spice Girls is back! They still look as pretty and sexy luh.

thats the last time spice girls. Lol

off i go, bye!

Oh for you info, that esprit de corspe appeared in orange and white, with black stockings on the finals. Lol. =.=